yes, i did meet austin carlile. and yes i was a wreck.
i just want to relive this because every time i do, it makes me happy when i am sad.
for those of you who don’t know, i’ve had a really rough year. when i found out i got to meet austin, it was purely by chance. my small friend elena needed me to take her out of a pit, so while waiting for a friend i stopped by the aspire & create tent. i bought a shirt for the fuck of it, just to say i had one. the really nice (and pretty) girl behind the table asked if i wanted to meet austin. it was totally rad, because earlier i had stopped by and asked her if she would give presents from me to austin. i of course said yes. the meet & greet was at 7, so i arrived at like 6:45. i was standing there with my small friend in line when i was distracted. elena scream “OH MY GOD IS THAT HIM?!” and i whipped my head around. sure as hell it was.
soon the line shriveled and i was next. i walked up to him, arms open wide. tears in my eyes i opened my mouth to speak..
"i just wanted to thank you for saving me from the darkest part of my life."
austin let an “awe!!” escape his lips. he hugged me so tightly and i began to cry and when i was about to let go because i felt creepy, he held me closer. like he could feel my pain.
eventually the hug ended and i told him i had presents for him. and he said “OH MY GOSH? REALLY!!” and i handed him the lightsaber i brought him and letter.. and a poem.
i told austin i had already whooped ass with the lightsaber and that it had good karma. he smiled wide.
i then told him i was a star wars freak, and we talked about the effects in his show. i asked him if he would sign my back pack. he did, he wrote never give up. i told him his signature was so messy, he could be a doctor. he said no one had ever told him that before.
i told him about how sometimes i wanted to die, but his music saved me.
he told me to always remember that no matter what happened, he loved me. he never wanted me to stop chasing my dreams. he told me i was beautiful.
we took pictures, he licked my face.
i told him to stay awesome, he told me to do the same. i told him he didn’t even have to try, it was me that was going to keep up with him.
he told me i surpassed him a long time ago.
i left and i bent down and cried harder than I’ve ever cried.
austin carlile is my hero.